August 2010
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Friendship Fail?
Conversation between a friend and I, paraphrased:
Background: I’ve known her the longest of my friends. We’ve been BFFs for almost 8 years now. She went away to school (Minnesota). She’s going back at the end of this month.
Me: “I’m broke. Let’s skip bday presents, and get together for a movie or dinner instead.” Her: “Sure. When?” Me:...
July 2010
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Finally
I’m getting back on track today. Just weighed myself. I’m at 185.4lbs. Thought it’d be more.
I’m about to go grab a bowl of Cheerios and a banana for breakfast. Work starts at 9am until 2pm. I will work out after work. Whether I decide to work out inside or go for a long walk, I don’t know yet.
I’ve also started a “Fitness Fund” which I made a...
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*bitchslap*
Just as I’m starting to figure out how to get back on track, I’ve written grocery lists, recipes, etc: Dave texts me (and posts to Facebook) that he’s ‘fasting’ to start off a diet.
Now, he is the type of guy to say he’s going on a diet every week. I’ve kinda started to shrug it off each time he even mentions a diet, but not this time. I told him...
Beer is evil.
Especially evil on days where I can’t call out of work cause it’s Monday (Monday is the worst day ever… well, not ever).
Last night was so much fun. BBQ at Nikki’s with her family and Drew and Nicole. Then Drew had to gedt on his train, so we (Nikki, Nicole, me) drove him there and decided to go to the beach afterwards. This while Nikki and I are both drunk. Lol. So, we...
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EEEEEEEK
Summer should officially be renamed as “The Season In Which Shannon Screams Like A Little Girl… A Lot”.
Welp, the first Flying Bug of the season has made it into my room. Unfortunately for it, Chris and my mother were awake, so I was able to enlist their help. Chris seriously just picked the thing up with his hand and flushed it down the toilet. Dave does the same thing! Then I...
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Gah!
I just need motivation! I have absolutely none. Not for school, for work, for making myself a healthier person. Hell, not even to type on here. When was the last time I did?
Random:
- Found a car. I know, it was quick. It’s a ‘97 Hyundai Sonata. About $3500. Runs awesome, and it’s the cleanest car I’ve ever seen. Might actually start driving to Connecticut. Save some...
June 2010
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Thanks, just thanks.
Is it wrong for me to hate my boss a little right now?
I’m going to the doctor’s today at around 3pm because my neck is bothering me. I want to get in there and get it checked just in case.
I called work at 8am to tell them I wouldn’t be in. I said, “I’m not gonna be able to come in today. I need to go to the doctors because I was in a car accident yesterday and...
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Mondays (Yes, I know it's Tuesday)
I feel like I’m living my life in Mondays.
Just Monday to Monday, waiting for his train to get here or mine to get there.
And all that’s there in between are work shifts and the occassional day with a friend.
Dropped him off at the station today, then ran to Target to grab a few things, and you know what? I just about broke down in the middle of some stupid nail treatment aisle...
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Need to say it.
Know I’ve been ignoring this all lately. I’m still ignoring soda and candy. I’m still eating better than before. Working out is… bleh.
I really just came on here because I just feel the need to say it / type it out:
I had sex. 21 years old and not a virgin anymore.
Was it mindblowing? No. Was it the most romantic moment ever? Not. Was it over very (I love him, but...
True Blood Par-tay!
Last night was horrible food wise, but to be quite honest: I don’t care. I don’t feel guilty.
We had pizza, red rice crispy treats, red (strawberry) jello, shirley temples, beer (not part of the red theme…), and sangria. I feel that I’m missing something, but it all just boiled down to:
True Blood. It was pretty good. I still don’t like Tara. I still think Eric...
Just take my last entry and multiply it by 2.
I just don’t know what’s up with me lately. Feel like the only time I’m actually motivated to do anything is when I’m in Connecticut.
Went to Drew’s to see Nikki and him on Monday. Had my first “glass of soda” in three months. Which doesn’t actually count since I couldn’t even taste the soda...
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Gah
Just a few weeks ago, I was so motivated to do this. I kicked my soda and sugary candy habit almost 3 months ago. That’s crazy. I’ve started eating regular portions, minimizing any binging moments. I’ve definitely improved my eating habits, and while they’re not perfect, I am proud of myself in that regard.
Exercise, however.
That’s where my motivation and pride...
Yawn
Seems my one problem with the new job is the changing schedule. Not a huge problem:
I’m just always tired now. :(
That’s all. Now I have to go get ready for work.
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Doesn't Count, Damn It
Current Weight: 182.4lbs
I got a new scale. Unfortunately, it seems this scale puts me back in the 180s. It’s fine. I’ll just have to keep working. :)
I’m in an oddly good mood today. So, let’s keep it this way.
Excuse me while I pass out.
I’m sorry this is going to be long.
Busiest two days ever.
Picture this.
It’s 4pm on Monday, I’m racing out the door of my job. Get in the car, yes I’m speeding (not too much, but enough). At each red light, I lose or add a piece of clothing. First, I lose the DrugStore shirt. At the next, I add my blue dress (see last post) over my red tank top. The third, I maneuver...
May 2010
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I might cry.
1) It’s 10:30pm (just got home from work) and I have to be back at work at 7am. I might be skipping a shower tomorrow.
2) I can not figure out how to get from my job to the train station in 18 minutes on Memorial Day Monday at 4pm. I just can’t. Especially since: (see #3)
3) The brakes on my car are… I don’t know what they are. They were making a noise as I drove to...
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I hate being a girl...
sometimes.
Sometimes I love being a girl. Other times, I want to cut out my ovaries and uterus and have a ritual sacrifice.
Sorry, TMI.
Today was a bad food day. I crave when I’m on my period. And by crave, I mean “want to eat everything in sight and usually succumb…” I succumbed a bit. Not overly so, but enough that I’m feeling guilty.
I did do my workout...
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I thought it was going to be horrible.
I woke up, earlier than I’d have liked. I got my period, later than I’d have liked. I’ve been getting cramps now, which doesn’t usually start until a couple hours. And I feel bloated and fat.
I didn’t want to weigh myself. I had to actually talk myself into getting on the scale, because I knew it’d still be between 180 and 181. Psyched myself up to be able to...
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Seriously?
I keep doing this. I get on the scale, I realize I’m staying at 181 for another week, I work up a sweat for the next three days, and then…
nothing. I make excuses. Oh, I have work all day today. Oh, I’ll work out extra hard tomorrow. Oh, Dave’s coming today, I have to clean.
And I know that for today and tomorrow, my excuse will be that Dave’s here.
My...
A gym?!?!
I mentioned Nikki getting me a guest pass to her gym, and my Mom offered to help me pay for a gym membership if I really thought I’d go this time.
Now I just need to pick a gym.
Any recommendations?
What a change...
I just realized my Amazon wishlist somehow went from being all books, movies, and a few other odd objects completely switched to being things like new resistence bands, a blender, a pedometer, and a scale (which might be my first buy after I actually have some savings).
Umm... yeah.
No smoothie. Turns out we need a new blender… I wish I had taken a picture of the mess that had ensued when I realized that.
Just picture a slightly blended puddle of bananas, strawberries, and some milk.
Hello, Sunshine
I like working out in the morning.
It’s a nice feeling. It’s 10:20am. I’ve worked out. And I still have the rest of the day. Don’t have work until 6pm.
I’m now making myself some banana’s blended into ice-creamy texture, maybe with strawberries (I can’t decide). Or maybe a smoothie.
But now I have all day to clean, take a shower, do whatever I want...
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I'm tired, and achy, BUT
I’m actually looking forward to working out tomorrow.
I’ve been feeling good today. It was laid back at work. I got paid! So nice getting a decent paycheck (now to pay off my credit card bill). Got know the other new-girl at work. Talked to Dave for my entire break. Found out I’m not working Monday, so whenever Dave gets here, we can just hang out before going to Applebees with...
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Time to get back on track.
Last week: 180.8
This week: 181.0
I’m actually surprised it’s only a .2 gain. But not at the same time.
This past week has been so up and down that I will take and enjoy the .2. Because I’m hoping it’s the last gain for a while. I’m now getting back on track. After starting a new job and dealing with almost skipping a weekend with Dave, I’ve been putting...
This I know.
I know I tend to talk more about my relationship with my boyfriend here than I do about my relationship with food and working out, but I can’t help it.
I’ve been depressed all day, and I’m likely to be depressed for the rest of the week. I work until 10pm tonight, which means that if I were to go to Dave’s, I wouldn’t get there until 2am. Which means we’d go...
Ummm....
Let’s just say today was bad and leave it at that.
Basically: A huge BBQ for a Fire Department. Probably about 1000 people. Free burgers, hot dogs, chips, drinks (beer, wine, soda), etc etc…
And I had ice cream later.
Not. Good.
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Sometimes, I can't take it.
TheBoyfriend: “As much as this might freak you out, there are a lot of times where I wish we could just live together.”
Cue discussion about how it doesn’t freak me out, that I’ve thought about it, that at some point in the future, yes, I do want to live together (isn’t that where relationships are supposed to head for?), and that while I wish it could be,...
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Work 24/7
The new job seems easy so far. The other cashiers seem nice enough especially when I’m asking questions every five seconds. Really, the only rule I need to recognize is “Make the customer happy” it seems. Easy enough. Met another of the managers, who seems… blunt. I get in today at 3pm. Don’t know if I’m just supposed to stick to the registers, or learn other...
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“I was always dieting, always struggling, always trying to lose [weight]. Diets...”
– Ellen DeGeneres
Last week: 180.2
This week: 180.8
Fine. But this is the last week I’m being so blasé about it. I know I can do this. I’m already fitting into smaller pants! I know I can keep going with this, and I am motivated.
No more “not writing it down because I can...
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I bought pants...
and they were a size 14.
I’ve been a size 16/18 for… well, forever!
I was shocked. I tried on a 16, and they felt loose, so I hesitantly grabbed a size 14, and flippedthefuckout when they fit.
So, I now have work pants and two pairs of work shoes (black ‘sneakerish’ shoes, and black flats).
And I’m feeling sooooo good.
(‘Weekend’ with Dave was...
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It's Monday!
3.4 miles today.
I had a plan today! Woke up, talked with Dave on the phone, got my sheets off my bed to put in the wash (cause Mom put stuff in already), then walked to Walmart.
Why do I drive places? My headphones broke last night, so I was using these crappy ones we had lying around. So, I planned to get up in the morning and go to CVS or Walmart. Walmart being cheaper, I ended up going...
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Reasons to feel good!
thebodycoachreinvented:
Reblog this post and add your own! Reasons to feel good: Having a wonderful body awareness due to very stiff muscles from yoga on Saturday! Just spent a wonderful Mother’s day with my sister and her fiancé. looking forward to a productive week. Follow me on thebodycoachreinvented.tumblr.com
It no longer takes half an hour to get me out of the house and walking lately....
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Happy Mother's Day!
My day off yesterday officially ended with my 3.5 mile walk just now. My only negative with this walk is that it’s windy as hell outside. And the wind, it followed me. Followed as in, it was in my face no matter which way I turned. I do not live in the Windy City. I live on Long Island. Wind, while present, does not follow people! -mutter-stupidwind-mutter-
I now have to take a shower and...
Taking A Personal Day
I am taking a day off. Just this one. I won’t binge, but I won’t worry. I did a bit of WiiFitPlus, but I’m not going walking (plus it’s windy and rain on and off).
Today is relaxation and contemplation.
Now, excuse me while I go watch the new episode of Doctor Who.
… I’m a dork. Sue me.
Awww,
Everyone on my dash is trying on their old dresses. Makes me wish I had kept all my old dresses to try on. :-/ I actually have my junior prom dress, but I’m not sure I have my prom dress (which I super duper loved cause my mom made it for me) since my cat (who was banned from my room for a good long while) peed on it. I coulda sworn we got it cleaned but I can’t remember what we did...
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This is what I do!
I freak out about the smallest things!
So, my training is today. It’s at a different DrugStore than the one I’m going to be working at. The store manager said “friday” “[town]” “go down [this] road, left at [that] road, and you’ll find it” and “7 o’clock” which I later asked if it was a.m. or p.m.
But I’m still...
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Really? Seriously?
Last week: 180.8
This week: 180.2
Ok, seriously? .6 loss? I mean, I’ll take it! I’ll obviously take whatever loss I can get. I just have to figure out what went wrong. I stopped writing down my calories, thinking I could do it in my head, but that’s out now. Already wrote down my breakfast today.
I’m feeling better than yesterday. Today’s my DrugStore interview...